Saturday, July 12, 2014

Memories (Part I)

Experiences sweet and bitter are etched into our memory alike though  reside in different partition of memory. We decide what we want to keep it and what we don't. We believe what we want to believe and similarly we remember what we want to remember. However in both cases the unwanted memories and one that we don't want to believe keep barraging us with their knocks. Some times the knocks are so vicious that it pains but that is how it is. We have to face the consequences of our actions. Just as the sweet memories bring smile to our face, we should bear with the bitter ones with aplomb. Its our self defense which comes to our defense (just like Tim Howard for USA). Memories right from the birth keep getting accumulated which if played on a video player would be nothing short of an auto biography. I believe when played the pace would be nothing like a normal pace but a slow motion of the events(good or bad). Nothing short of a non linear movie a le 'Memento'. Yes I had to draw parallels with my favorite movie the premise of which was memory. Why Memento? We encode similar set of memories using an algorithm which I don't have any idea, in partitions which are close to each other sort of clustering so to say. Now if some were to play the memories in a video, there is highly probability that the events go back and forth in a non linear fashion. Now apart from me, other people would find it absurd. While the whole idea of playing the memory on a video is absurd, it sure would not be a bad idea at the fag end of our life when material possessions would mean nothing to us and this might bring out a smile/tear or two reminiscing the past. But the question to be asked is whether the train of emotions triggered by memories are true in nature or not. Yes, memories are unreliable because we want it to be that way as it leaves a lot to interpretation. If we want to feel good, we interpret them in a certain way and vice-versa. They are friends and foe alike. Sometimes I ask myself why don't certain memories get deleted from our system and then I am reminded by one of the quotes from 'Little Miss Sunshine" that we are what we are because of our sufferings and that since that doesn't change why should the memories which are part function of it. They are born with us and die with us.